Tuesday, February 16, 2010

I need your strength to feel this weak

I have never before experienced culture shock.

I have never before been frustrated with learning a language.

I have never before knowingly been spiritually attacked.

But I cannot say that anymore.

But I tell you all this so that you can pray for me. People told me this would be hard, but I didn't realize it would be so hard this soon.

Spiritual warfare is a very real thing. We have been attacked brutally and individually and collectively by the enemy. And we are doing everything we can to cling to Jesus Christ and gain victory through his strength. But this land is Satan's territory. He has the foothold here, and does not want to give it up. And we just have to fight.

Pray for this team. Pray for us as we go through culture shock. Pray for us as we muddle our way through Spanish. Pray for us as we are attacked. It is only our second week in Peru and we are facing so many battles. Pray for unity in this team. Pray for us to draw close to God and each other. pray for the people we are ministering to and will minister to. Pray for the leadership of Extreme Nazarene. Pray for me, and my family. And thank you so much for praying!

This is my prayer tonight:
"I need Your strength to feel this weak. I need Your touch to feel my need. I need Your strong hands to carry me. Take me, bring me to my knees."

2 comments:

  1. Dear Cailyn,

    The spiritual battle for you began while you were in your mother's womb. God already knew and set you aside for what He had purposed... For His Glory. Glory Hallelujah when our eyes are awakened to that which manifests itself as demonic; for God is the ONLY One who gives such Discernment to His own, for the good purpose of us relying on Him. He shall battle for you Cailyn.

    From the first moment I laid eyes on you in church it was then I had a dream. I dreamed of you singing and I saw your mother faint. I understood then Cailyn if I had no other purpose there at this particular church, there would be some purpose in God's exceptional plan which would take you far beyond your boarders, and He would put in place Intercessor Praying Warriors and Supporters for you.

    Why the need for Warriors and Supporters? All apart of the Body of Christ; Working Hands, Feet, Eyes, Ears and Tongues. Give over all fears to God and He will rise up in thee.

    Blessings be poured down upon you and the team. In the Name of Jesus, amen.

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  2. A prayerful song of Trust I sing and think of you:

    I know not if the Wind should blow
    Nor do I know from whence it comes or where it goes,
    But I know when the Spirit is moving,
    And I know this is where I want to be

    Be my eyes, be my ears, be my tongue Oh Lord,
    Be my hands... my feet,
    Lead me in Your Ancient pathways,
    Where I can only be... Guided by Thee.
    Where I can only be... Guided by Thee.

    I know not if Tomorrow will come
    Nor do I know what God has planned for me,
    But I know who holds me in the Palm of His Hand,
    And I know this is where I want to be.

    Be my eyes, be my ears, be my tongue Oh Lord,
    Be my hands... my feet,
    Lead me in Your Ancient pathways,
    Where I can only be... Guided by Thee.
    Where I can only be... Guided by Thee.

    Lead me in Your Righteousness,
    Teach me Oh God Your Word,
    Write them upon my Heart with pen,
    May Your Works be known... by Your Fruit.


    Be my eyes, be my ears, be my tongue Oh Lord,
    Be my hands... my feet,
    Lead me in Your Ancient pathways,
    Where I can only be... Guided by Thee.
    Where I can only be... Guided by Thee.

    for I know not if the wind should blow; yet I will follow.

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